I have been reborn.

Seriously, I have been reborn. I've been going through the motions and such with school and friends and everything for quite a bit lately, but today... I was reminded of pure happiness. It all started when I wrote a poem on Camie's wall, then got a bit more of my swag back (yes I used the word swag) and made a witty quote to Katelyn on skype chat and then I was there freak dancing to Drop it Low. I feel back on my game at last! The pure joy I get out of witty comments and making up poems is ridiculous, but I love it :) Then Drop it Low. Now you don't even understand how much I was smiling tonight. Dance parties. I LOVE freaking out and just dancing like there's no tomorrow. I have no dance skills per say, but I enjoy looking like a fool. The key is to dance like a fool, but trick people into thinking that you know what you're doing. Then it becomes cool and some people may even wish they could dance like you. I've used this tactic time and time again. It never fails. For me... dun dun dun. But tonight was fun! Dancing in our room at 1:30 disturbing the peace and rapping to Love the Way you Lie... it just doesn't get any better than that. I miss the dance and stomp days, but I'll never let them die at heart! Dances remind me of tons of different people. Whether it's the stomp days with Camie, Katelyn and Alyssa at High School parties, or in the car with Ky and Syd, or around Heritage with Ali Brand, all make me so freaking happy.

Anywho, no pics really. I've shared my dance ones millions of times on the good ole blog. But here's some promised ones for Kylee. I had some fun with my webcam one day.... don't judge. I was bored.

I luv dis

Push Closed Captioning to see the words
cuz the first time watching it, you can miss some great lines.

This is pretty much my daily life. With my wand which I now possess :) 

I LOVE HARRY POTTER

The Chamber of Secrets has been opened. 

Enemies of the Heir, Beware.
That is all.

I guess this is Growing Up.

After this weekend I felt so accomplished. I'll give ya a rundown...

So technically here in P-town, weekend starts Thursday. Thursday night we went to the midnight premier of Pirates and it was awesome! I really liked this one! So props to the writers, producers, actors, etc. :) Oh and I was pretty legit. Brought my wand :) I bet people were a little confused.

pic courtesy of Holly Henrich

Friday I woke up at 10. Which is quite impressive after staying up till 4 if I do say so myself. I woke up, quickly did my cleaning check stuff, and was out the door! I got home and didn't stop! I helped my mom with Marquel's friend birthday party. Let me tell ya, I don't know if my children will ever have birthday parties. haha These kids were nuts! They just ran around like crazy, did whatever they pleased, and made a mess. Little devils. Then we tried some organized games like "Musical Chairs". Who does't love some musical chairs right? Wrong. They just cried when they got out and generally didn't understand how to play. So that was a bit of a disaster. So during a certain portion of the party, Hunter and I escaped! I had noticed that we had a surplus of apples... so we grabbed a few and the bat they had used for the pinata and went in the driveway. I haven't played baseball in years! But it was fun to just grab Hunt and do something random with him. It was great. Besides the cleaning up apples part afterwards.

Friday night was alright. I started out in some bliss. I just chilled out on the large couch in the basement, sipped back on a Diet Cherry Pepsi, and watched Criminal Minds. Then I decided to go out with a few friends from HS. I'm not really sure about it. It was just a little strange. They would talk about all the mutual people they knew, but I didn't. Then they'd tell the latest gossip about people younger than us and still in high school and honestly, I didn't care one bit. I have changed A LOT since coming to BYU. Strangely enough, I feel more grown up than some of my friends who didn't come here. I don't care about who got pregnant without being married, or how funny it is to watch someone get high. That doesn't interest me anymore. I'd much rather go hang out somewhere, talk about our own lives, and just live in the moment enjoying company. I think I've clearly grown up. In every way possible. I look back on past relationships I had in High School and how I would handle things so much differently and more maturely than I had back then. It feels good to feel grown up :) haha

this is when people go, uh huh...real grown up. 

Anyways, Saturday I turned into a slave. The slave master? My father. I worked out in the yard for about 4 hours just weeding and planting flowers. I did NOT like getting all muddy at first and I was definitely scarred by the giant spiders in the soft dirt, but all in all I just had fun :) Hunter and I would joke around and run from the spiders, play in the waterfall, and make it all a game. I definitely enjoyed those moments :)
Saturday night I wasn't doing much so I decided to help my mom clean out the garage. I don't know why in the world I was so into cleaning and helping out, but it felt good. I even got to use the power washer in the garage! I love that thing! Last summer Tay and I had to clean out the garage, but got to use the power washer and we just spent hours spraying each other with it! It is amazing. Not exaggerating. It sprays water SO fast, but when it hits your face, it feels like a light misting. Then you look down and you are totally soaked! Aww. I love that thing.

Today I attended 3 farewells. One for Yazzie, and one combined one for Parker Marsden and Ryan Reeves. I grew up with Parker and Ryan so it was really fun to go back to the old ward I lived in all growing up until I was 14 and see old friends and feel a bit at home :) Then we had a little family celebration for Marquel's birthday and now I'm back in P-town! With a test to study for. Yikes.

(PS for your info trivia "I guess this is Growing Up" is a lyric from a Blink 182 song :) Allred does an awesome cover of it. Look it up fools!) 

low............

This is it kids. I've hit an all time low point. Yes, I've had many times where I have studied hard this semester, but in reality... Spring semester for me has been a lot of doing nothing. I need a life desperately. As was previously stated, I've hit a low point. Since I have nothing to do with my life, I am sitting here in my room trying to draw Pascal from Tangled and failing miserably. Drawing. At 12 pm. (slaps forehead). Nerd moment. Totally wish I could go out and hang out with people late at night like in fall/winter semester :( The time will come I'm sure.

Fun things are in the near future though! The kids are coming down tomorrow while the parents go to the temple. So that'll be just a blast with Tay, Hunt and Marquel. What cuties. Sometimes. haha My worst fear: they will run rampant around heritage halls, Marquel will be lost forever, Hunter will get mad at me and storm out never to return, and Taylor will be talking to the construction workers as they offer him an ice cold beer. That would definitely be a nightmare. I'm sure all will go well though and we will be one happy family as we sit in my kitchen. I don't even know what to do when it's just me here, let alone me and the kids. Oh boy.

Another thing to look forward to is Pirates of the Caribbean! I was always a bit of a fan, but not hardcore or anything. But shoot, who could turn down a movie premier right? Chance to do something, get out, and party late at night. Some of my favorite things :) Senior year we went to a TON of midnight premiers. I miss those days sometimes. Then I'll look at facebook and some people I never wanted to hang out with ever again, and I get over it. Life goes on. Some days I want life to freeze in its tracks so I can just figure things out. Figure myself out, figure my future out and decide what I want in the end. Instead life goes on and I just try and keep up. (You just watch: I'll make up a poem about this soon and it'll be grand. Just like they days when my friend Camie and I would post poems on each others facebook walls all the time. Our whit was blinding as well as our sheer talent and beauty.)

As for me I'm trying to further my talents in the arts through drawing, refreshing my old piano, singing (sorta), and of course composing pure poetry. Hope all is well with everyone else! In the words of Bradford Davis: "peace, love, the Gap" :)

These kids

Sometimes...*aka most times*... I really miss these kids...

Bountiful High people...will probably be the most random people you will ever meet. We pride ourselves in that fact. A town of Mormons trying to have fun in random ways. I have been waterballooned, and waterballooned random people many times. I have sun tanned on Camie's roof. I have streaked at MPJH. I have danced on the Boulevard countless times. Alyssa peed her pants on the Boulevard... :) We prank called a ton. But most importantly I have dressed up so many times I can't keep track. Dressing up was just a part of life. We wanted to have fun...so we dressed up and walked around stores in Bountiful... We wanted to crash stomps... so we'd dress up and totally make other schools stomps fantastic... when we were bored...we'd dress up. When we were sad...we'd dress up (I can just picture Janna in that boyscout uniform while we laughed/ complained about life in Camie's messy room). In long (not short obviously), we loved to dress up :) 

We also loved to quote movies. If you get Miss Katelyn Marie Bleak and I in a room together we will quote movies non-stop. And it doesn't stop at movies... Brian Regan is a regular favorite as well. Goodness I just miss those girls a TON. Senior year we kinda had our falling apart. As they got more involved with musical and all their musical friends I kinda went off and did my own thing. Then this summer we had some more great times together and I was really happy for that :) They were there through my whole awkward Jr. High stage and amazingly didn't desert me!

Camie and I share a special affinity for things like Karaoke. We went to Karaoke night at Applebees on University Parkway many Tuesdays :)

Alyssa and I are just nerds I think... We quote Phineas and Ferb and enjoy getting together to watch movies and enjoy each others company :)

So I definitely miss them and all the fun/crazy times we used to have and I can't wait till real summer when I'm back and Katelyn's back and we can pull more randomly amazing stunts to add to a fantastic list!

The following song reminds me of my random summer flings in my past. It's short. But good. :)

185th ward

Video is unrelated to this blog post...but I just really like that song. 

it's weird when your wardies become some of your best friends :)

I really miss my old ward today. These kids made the semester amazing for me. I hung out with basically just them....and it was fantastic. At the start of the semester...needless to say... my roommates and I were dormant. We would stay in our dorm all day and do nothing but watch Food Network. But by the end of the year we became the closest friends ever with our FHE brothers! Our Fall semester brothers were just my favorite people ever...nbd. This pretty much sums them up: 

We'd go dumpster diving with these guys and 215 ALL the time! It was such a blast. 

We also went to Walmart a lot... and REALLY liked cramming into the car and blastin' "It's raining men" and sing at the top of our lungs. :)

sometimes things may have gone a little too far. (Dance parties in the backseat)

As Fall semester ended and we had to say goodbye to some of our favorite guys ever, we once again became slightly dormant and would  occasionally go on random spurs of hanging out with people like Mitch or Eric. Then one fine day toward the end of the semester we made more friends. I think it all started when we slept over in another girls dorms kitchen...uninvited. Observe:

We also had the most amazing 4 hour sacrament meeting ever and all became really close as a ward. That's when we all went classic skating together... then we went over to Emily Heath's house and played Just Dance! That was a really amazing ward! And just a few weeks before school ended we met our new best friends: 2111.

2111.... oh how I miss this dorm. These were the guys who we selfishly made stay up way past their bedtimes so that they could hang out with us. I think we hung out with them for a couple days straight and the only time they were rid of us was when they were sleeping or taking a final. haha But that was the life! I miss these guys so much. We had so little time left in the semester so we had to squeeze a ton of fun stuff in! We had a tie together dinner, went ice skating, classic skating, and donut dumpstering. We ate a lot...we exchanged movies via facebook, we filmed the guys on their odd ride down the sidewalk, went to devotionals together (adam in his roller blades....) we watched lots of youtube videos, hung out in the make out box, we went to the hospital...., we watched Tangled, we went to brunches, we saw a creeper with a spear, we observed the flooding street, we played Mario Kart and Super Smash, we played ultimate frisbee, we played with melted jello near the bell tower, we saw a guy in his underwear running after his roommates, we stayed up till 3 every night, we talked, and all in all: it was amazing. 

I really will miss these kids. Adam has already left on his mission, Turner is soon to go, and the other guys I'll see occassionally, but I just wish we all could have met sooner and made more fun times together (like that's even possible, right?). But life goes on and I can't wait to hang out with them all when they get back from missions! 

This is the first night we hung out with them. And yes, this picture is retarded.
And awkward.

Then a few weeks ago Adam and Josh came and visited! Yay! All in all, we had the best ward in the world. No doubt. Everyone in the ward was amazing and we all made lasting friendships that I don't know what I'd do without! 185th....you will always be in my heart. 

The Race

This is it, kids. It's the moment we've all been waiting for. The Amazing Race finale is finally upon us! Yes I got 6th pick and thought I was doomed, but I hoped against all hope and picked strategically and look what that got my girls... a spot in the final four. Jen and Kisha have run a hard race so far, but never seem to make that number one spot. Let's hope that tonight... all that will change! Underdogs coming in for the win! Woo! We have $140 on the line here people That'd be so amazing (pun intended) if I won that. The others in the final four include:
Natalie Farley 
relation: sister
team: Globetrotters: Flight Time and Big Easy
outlook: tough competition for my girls, but I believe we can do it!


Jenessa Davis
relation: sister-in-law
team: Gary and Malory
outlook: if they beat my team, we should be thoroughly embarrassed.

Bradford Davis
relation: brother
team: Zev and Justin
outlook: they are a tough team who have one first quite frequently, but maybe there luck is about to run out!

Unfortunately I don't get to watch this until tomorrow because we don't have a tv... but trust me, I'll be cheerin' hard for my underdogs!

Depression!

How sad is this: tonight is the last Allred concert. Gonna be their biggest concert ever. And probably the last one in Provo. I got a free ticket by buying John Allred's new EP. And now... I'm not even going! So sad. I have no friends to go with me, plus for people without a ticket it's like $10 and I don't want to make anyone pay that. Anywho, so I don't get to got to that tonight. Sad day. And I have so many plans for tomorrow that I can't really make that show either. Darn it all! But I do have their CD :) He's a short, awkward man but I tell ya I can't help but just fall in love with his music. Some of his stuff is a bit depressing but he did this new song called "waiting". (gasp!) has to be one of my favorites at the moment. Definitely gonna miss going to his concerts, but there are always other bands and concerts to go to :) Concert-going rocks my world.

That and I've been getting really into a band called He is We lately. They are so awesome!

Guilty Pleasures

Confession time! 

(20 confessions about myself that you probably wouldn't have guessed!)

Confession number 1: I love me some So You Think You Can Dance. love love love it. Back in the summer me and my friends would watch the final couple of weeks together and then go have our own dance party on the blvd! Where we would proceed to do dance moves from specific dances to the song they belong with :) I'm not a dancer by any means. When I was younger and my mom made me do dance I was SO mad at her. Yet, I just LOVE this show. 

Confession numba 2: Food is really yummy. That is all.

Confession number 3: I'm a huge Broadway nerd. For example: walking to anatomy lab today I listened to Wicked the whole way. I'd pass by people and wonder if they knew what a nerd I was. Makes me wonder what some people are listening to on campus when you can't tell... For me, it's usually some random shuffle but there are those moments where you just need a little power from Wicked. A little power from some of the best voices ever! I wish I could sing like them. Goal in life: become Elphaba or Eponine on Broadway. (If you're wondering who these people are I feel bad for you). 

Confession number 4: sometimes when I was alone in my room I lip sync to the mirror and plan my own music videos inside my head. But who doesn't right? Right. 

Confession number 5: sometimes I really wish I had cool talents. I wish I would have stuck with piano or I could sing well or play the guitar or cello or violin or something. 

Confession number 6: I rock at Halo. Halo is my inner nerd in real life form. I love going home and just playing with my siblings all the time! Sometimes I'll force them to play with me and other times I just play all alone online with my fellow nerds around the world. I'll start playing once everyone has gone asleep and then end at like 1:30 or 2. 

Confession number 7: For about a month or so in High School I'd put Pride and Prejudice on before I went to bed and listen to it as I fell asleep. I now have every line memorized. Heck yeah! '

Confession number 8: I want to serve a mission someday. Most girls are like eh... who knows. I really want to! If I'm not married (a horrible thought at the moment) or dating anyone real serious, I'm going out there! 

Confession number 9: I can't drive without singing along to the radio. It's impossible. 

Confession number 10: Celine Dion rocks my world. Throughout High School we'd blast her all the time in the car on the way to lunch, on the blvd, etc. Best memory ever is going up to Park City with some of the girls and listening to Celine the whole way while playing a little game I like to call... I'll spare you the name for obvious reasons. But it involves car lights, yellow lights, and clothing. 

Confession number 11: I also love Ke$ha. She's like the total opposite of Celine Dion but I just can't help but to love all her songs! Whether it's laughing at them or just singing along like a fool. They are just a lotta fun. 

Confession number 12: I have exercise induced asthma. It doesn't act up often, but it's still there.  

Confession number 13: I've only kissed 3 boys. Depressing, I know. Yet in my old dorm I was referred to as the dorm "skank". Oh joy. Welcome to BYU I guess. 

Confession number 14: I love learning. I complain about school a lot, but I love learning! I love going home and telling my mom all about the cool stuff I've learned whether it be in a religion class or about anatomy. Maybe I'm just a cocky little brat and love bragging, but really. I love knowing stuff. Makes me feel smarter than my brother Taylor (the know it all). 

Confession number 15: I am the biggest procrastinator this world has ever seen. I don't study until just before an exam (for example my quiz in Anatomy) and I most definitely am not one of those suck ups who does the work early. Procrastination is the REAL key to success. Duh. 

Confession number 16: My favorite thing to do in warm weather is go boating. Particularly wakeboarding and tubing. I can only just get up on the wakeboard and go in and out of the wake, but I think it's so fun! Tubing is quite an event in my family. We hook up 3 tubes behind the boat and jump from tube to tube and try and knock each other off! It gets pretty intense! The best times were when we had the HOT DOOOOG in the middle. Such a freakin' blast! 

I made this one larger so maybe you can get a glimpse of Hunt-man's expression.
Best. Day. Ever.

Confession number 17: I watched all 6 seasons of Lost in one summer. FTW (for the win)

Confession number 18: I almost went skydiving once. Then it never happened. (Nat and Bee...we NEED to do this)

Confession number 19: Dances are my forte. Stomps and Dances were the highlight of Bountiful High. We knew how to have good stomps! Dress up, and don't stop moving. Ever. Dress ups were the bomb. 

Ali and I for BYU dance. yes, we know how to dress up.
We are B-town people after all!

Nerd dance

I'm Emily and I'm a gangster. haha
*complete with the famous orange vest

the Howl at USU

My personal favorite: "the glitter girls" at the Viewmont stomp

Confession number 20!!! (time for the gross mushy stuff) My little sister Marquel is probably the most important person in the world to me. When I found out my mom was pregnant with her, I was kind of upset. I thought it would ruin our whole family because we were totally past the baby stage and it was all just so strange to me. Then on Christmas when my mom told the rest of the family she was pregnant I first noticed my brother Bradford's reaction. He was SO excited. I decided I needed to shape up and rethink my mindset. Once Marquel was born she became the sole most important thing in my life. She taught me that sometimes trials are meant for the weak and they can totally bless your lives. My testimony has grown so much since she came into the world. Even though I always get, "is this your daughter?" I don't even care. What it appears to be to the rest of the world doesn't even matter. I just know that she came here for me. She makes me the happiest person in the world. And I get to be with her forever! :)

Soccer

All of this good weather is making me really miss soccer :(. Club soccer, that is. Playing High School Soccer for me was a joke. I act like it was a blast and I had so much fun, but it was a pretty dark part of my High School career. I was constantly measuring myself against the other girls and when I sat bench a lot I lost all confidence in myself. I'd go home and want to cry every time. Sometimes I did. Playing time and wanting the coaches to like me was the most important thing on my mind all the time, especially in that first part of Senior year. Time went on and I felt defeated. When I'd get in those last few minutes I'd play frantically because I knew if I didn't do something amazing, I'd be starting bench again. And for any of you who know soccer, you know that amazing plays don't come in those 2 sporadic minutes. You have to build up to it, work in with the players out there and find that perfect opportunity. I felt I was never given that chance really. So HS soccer... not the best for me. Hated it. haha I hated the favoritism of it, I hated the attitude and I hated how I was treated unfairly. At the end of the season I was happy to say goodbye to it all and I'll never ever forget what Paige Hunt said to me when we were all hugging after our final game. She straight up told me from the deepest part of her heart, "Em you're a really amazing soccer player, like you're really good". That's when I lost it! The tears were not present until that very moment! That totally changed my life when it came to soccer. I realized that I LOVE playing soccer, just not the politics involved.

A couple weeks went by and it was time for Club season. Going into it, I still had the worthless and defeated mindset, but once I got going... I had a blast! Eric Landon and Ashley (maiden name Wood...last name escapes me) were the best thing ever for me! They encouraged me constantly, I started every game, and we focused on a love for the game and that little thing made the difference. I was scoring a goal a game at least and I was creating some of the best memories of my life! My friends on that team are some of my best friends ever and we had so much fun together! Not only did I have fun playing but I also felt like I was an integral part of the team and not just that Senior that doesn't play much. And once my soccer life is going good, the rest of my life just kinda went along with it.

Here's the dream team. Plus or minus a few people...:)

Me and Aleesha! Definitely played soccer with her for a long time..

It's strange how soccer meant so much to me then that it would determine whether it was a good day or a bad day, but now I don't even play! Sure we have intramurals, but I really would give anything to go back and actually work hard at soccer. If I had done so and really realized how much I love it, I think I would have tried to play here at BYU and that would have been amazing! Granted, intramurals were a blast and making it to the semi's in the girls league as freshmen ain't to bad either! Um...we definitely took a picture after every single game. Here's a sampling. Lots have W. For Win. Cuz we're just amazing like that. We were undefeated until the semi's! Then we did an L... for Love?












Oh and remember this? Pretty much the best day of my life. Ryan Oaks should come home from his mission for a day and do this again!